Drinking a Drown

Against the waves racing headstrong
Into the foam and spray and wrong
Against the rocks crashing headlong
Drawn by a Siren's sound & song

Run aground again and again and
Broken and coming apart
Guided by stars in my eyes
The steel pull on a magnet heart

In desperate darkness courses sailed
In seeking, wanton longing failed
Through sweetened song allure prevailed
The danger all too late unveiled

Run aground again and again and
Broken and coming apart
Guided by stars in my eyes
The steel pull on a magnet heart
Run aground again and again and
Again turned upside down
Driven by thirst in a sea and
Left choking and drinking a drown

Run aground again
Turned upside down
Run aground, aground
And drinking a drown

Run aground again and again and
Broken and coming apart
Guided by stars in my eyes
The steel pull on a magnet heart
Run aground again and again and
Again turned upside down
Driven by thirst in a sea and
Left choking and drinking a drown

Crushed

And we don't choose what we feel
Only what we show
And what is shown is seldom real
Now there's a battle raging inside
Behind what is, what should,
What could cannot

To have and hold, as spoken
Hasn't held and now a hole remains
Two halves are making whole
What was in part, but was restrained

Once stilled, but now awakened
From slumber, startled to
Blind, it lumbers, slow, encumbered
The heart that wanders will only end up crushed
Beneath the wrong love

And we don't choose who we love
Only who we hurt
And who we hurt is rarely us

Now there is turmoil turning inside
Behind what is, what should,
What could cannot

To have and hold, as spoken
Hasn't held and now a hole remains
Two halves are making whole
What was in part, but was restrained

Once stilled, but now awakened
From slumber, startled to
Blind, it lumbers, slow, encumbered
The heart that wanders will only end up crushed
Beneath the wrong love

It hasn’t held and now a hole remains
Two halves are making whole
What was in part, but was restrained

Once stilled, but now awakened
From slumber, startled to
Blind, it lumbers, slow, encumbered
The heart that strays always ends up crushed
Once stilled, but now awakened
From slumber, startled to
Blind, it lumbers, slow, encumbered
The heart that wanders will always end up crushed
Beneath the wrong love

Closer Than Skin

See the Sun, the way it shines
Stretching in shadow everything that hides it
I have seen a truer light
Now even day is seeming dark without it

And if you stay away you’ll still be
Closer than my skin is to bone
You’ll be here inside and without
And seen behind my sleeping eyes

Feel the Earth, the way it turns
Fixing firmly in its place our motion
I have fought a greater pull
Now everything has come apart without it

And if you stay away you’ll still be
Closer than my skin is to bone
You’ll be here inside and without
And seen behind my sleeping eyes

Just a spark and you’ll see me overload
Just a sip and you’ll watch me overflow
Not enough to know for sure
Just enough to want for more

Hear the wind the way it blows
Bending anything that dares resist it
I have felt a stronger rush
Now even time is standing still without it

And if you stay away I’ll still be
Closer than your skin is to bone
I’ll be there inside and without
And seen behind your sleeping eyes

Just a spark and you’ll see me overload
Just a sip and you’ll watch me overflow
Not enough to know for sure
Just enough to want for more
Stay away…

The Shallow End

We glide below our shimmered sheathing
And sink beneath in dreams of breathing
Belabored lungs are spent and heaving
A plane above that cleaves the sheening

Filled with woe and veiled with laughter
What beamed before, lusterless after
I saw you there splashing then
Thrashing in the shallow end
Wet drawn lines that end
Broken where the surface bends
Couldn't bear to see you then
Wading in the shallow end
Arms reach, hands extend
I thought that you needed me to take you deeper

We’re casting off all we’ve transcended
And all we’ve known, not comprehended
We float upward in turns upended
In bursting through  to scenes of splendid
T’ward mysteries we rise in tandem
We’ve tried before to understand them

To see you there splashing then
Thrashing in the shallow end
Wet drawn lines that end
Broken where the surface bends
Couldn't bear to leave you then
Stranded in the shallow end
Arms reach, hands extend
I’d hoped that you wanted me to pull you closer

What hardened you only made me softer
Compelled to take what wasn't offered

To see you there splashing then
Thrashing in the shallow end
Wet drawn lines that end
Broken where the surface bends
Couldn't bear to leave you then
Stranded in the shallow end
Arms reach, hands extend
I swear I never meant to drag you under

I thought that you needed me to take you deeper
I’d hoped that you wanted me to pull you closer
I swear I never meant  to drag you under

A Little Light

There's a darkness here and it's deep and cold
Like an endless year in Winter's hold
Night has fallen
Leaves rotten, calling out

There's a darkness here and it comes and goes
But like a shadow moves, still, it shows itself
Now forbidden,
Has Spring, safely, hidden too?

There's a little light
Like a speck of white
Like a satellite blinking slowly
There's a whispering
Like a lullaby
From a little voice speaking softly

If there's a little light
If there's a little light that shines for me
Lord, I can’t see it
If there is any light
There's so little light it's hard to see
Lord, help me see it

There are silhouettes of sand and bone
Wearing tarnished crowns on broken thrones
Tides have come in
Kingdoms all are crumbling

There's a little light
Like a speck of white
Like a satellite blinking slowly
There's a whispering
Like a lullaby
From a little voice speaking softly
There's a little light
There is something bright
Like a camera pointed at me
There’s a word of hope
In a message sent
In a bottle that floats too slowly

If there's a little light
If there's a little light that shines for me
Lord, I cannot see it
If there is any light
There's so little light it's hard to see
Lord, help me see it

If there's a little light
If there's a little light that shines for me
Lord, I cannot see it
If there is any light
There's so little light it's hard to see
Lord, help me see it
If there is any light
Then there's a little hope
I swear, I know
Lord, where does it go?

Seventy Times Seven

Silently, you come to me in apology unspoken
Broken and with eyes cast down, without a sound
It’s the very thing we love that brings
All the greatest pain upon us
But seventy times seven is how many times
That’s how many times love forgives

Built of something not of brick and mortar
Laid in stones of flesh and set before her
With a breath its structure bent and pulled to nothing

Tasting bile and choking back this anger
Bound and gagging on my swallowed pride
She broke her promise
Now I've broken mine just to keep her

Did you ever consider what this meant to me?
Did you ever consider me at all?
One chance to learn this dance is not enough
God knows I've stumbled too

The want of something drawn of truth and fashioned
After forms of fire, forged in passion
Given over to a blood alive and rushing

Separation eats the time and distance
Disregarding any promise made
She broke my heart and now I’m sparing hers
Just to keep her

Did you ever consider all you mean to me?
Did you ever consider me at all?
One night to set things right is not enough
Time knows I've waited to

Silently, you come to me in apology unspoken
Broken and with eyes cast down, without a sound
It’s the very thing we love that brings
All the greatest pain upon us
But seventy times seven is how many times
That’s how many times love forgives

Did you ever consider what this did to us?
Did you ever consider us at all?
One night to set things right is not enough
God knows we've wanted to

Silently, you come to me in apology unspoken
Broken and with eyes cast down, without a sound
It’s the very thing we love that brings
All the greatest pain upon us
But seventy times seven is how many times
That’s how many times love forgives

Heal the Spring

Standing in her winter coat
Through wisp of wooden hair
Her leafless stare
Comfort in her cooling breath
A gasp of cold has stayed
The warming days

And all I've known
Are views of vacant skies, unoccupied
And all I’ve lost
She brought and laid before
My bolted door, offered…

Bathing in the morning sun
The ones I've seen before
All wanting more
I’m troubled by the days to come
Where restless stirring strays
And passion plays

And all I've known
Are views of vacant skies, unoccupied
And all they took
She brought and laid beneath
My window's breach
"Hold on", she said "Hold on"
"I've finally come to heal the spring"

The light of her eyes has broken through my soul
Her smile reminds me of another time when I knew I was whole
The lines ‘round her eyes have written in her face
The words that tell me I have finally found a resting place
She said she’d come to heal the spring

And all I've known
Are views of vacant skies, unoccupied
And all they took
She brought and laid beneath
My window's breach
"Hold on" she said, "Hold on"
"I've finally come to heal the spring"

The light of her eyes has broken through my soul
Her smile reminds me of another time when I knew I was whole
The lines ‘round her eyes have written in her face
The words that tell me I have finally found a resting place

The lines ‘round her eyes have written in her face
The words that tell me I have always had a resting place
She said she’d come to heal the spring

The Only Lie

Strong as tin and I'm living in a paper-thin house of cards
In disguise from my own advice
On the thin ice, I brace myself
One slip of this death-grip and I’ll trip
Ripped from fastening
In a fall and I can't recall where I crawled,
Clawing my way in

Say you'll never go
Say I'll never be alone
That's the only lie from you I want and would forgive
Say you'll never dream
Say you'll never even sleep
Then you'll not awake to only what I am

It’s a world where we cast our pearls
Into the mouths of swine
Chew them up good spit them out
Trampled under pretty feet
Separate and we wait to negate
What our fate delivers up
Chase the end, try and comprehend
When pretend is all that I can do

Say you'll never go
Say I'll never be alone
That's the only lie from you I want and would forgive
Say you'll never dream
Say you'll never even sleep
Then you'll not awake to only what I am

Choked tight, like a hot night, think I might suffocate
Like a coiled spring, taut string, eager to hesitate
One slip of this death-grip and I’ll trip
Ripped from fastening
In a fall and I can't recall when I crawled,
Clawing my way in

Say you'll never go
Say I'll never be alone
That's the only lie from you I want and would forgive
Say you'll never dream
Say you'll never even sleep
Then you'll not awake to only what I am
What I am

I Still

Standing, staring at the sun
Shouting curses one by one
"How dare you shine on my parade?"
The stabbing rays of brilliance fall
Bold, unphased, I take them all
Their heat no greater than desire

I still, I still
Hold a place for you
Lie still, Lie still
My place is there in you
I still, and will likely suffer all for you
Yet still I'd rather love you than not

Standing, pointing at the stars
Counting all, their numbers are
No greater than my thoughts of you
Rushing in and racing swift
Awake and dreamt, I wonder if
You're thinking of me as you dress

I still, I still
Hold a place for you
Lie still, Lie still
My place is there in you
I still, and will likely suffer all for you
Yet still I'd rather love you than not
(repeat)

Elsewhere

If there's a look in my eye that's like I'm elsewhere
And if it seems like I am distant, it's because I am
There are weights and measures drawn and lifted
But there are no words strong enough to bear this load
It's like I'm trapped in your glances
It’s like I’m frozen in fire
It's like I'm hanging on nothing…"It's nothing"

If you could see what I see,
Feel what I feel
You'd never even ask again
And if you knew what I know
If you felt what I feel
You'd maybe never smile again

If there's a look on my face that's like I'm elsewhere
And if my thoughts seem far from here
It's because they are
And if I try to look I can see right through you
But I'm never really ever able to see inside
It's like I'm trapped in your glances
It’s like I’m frozen in fire
It's like I'm hanging on nothing…"It's nothing"

If you could see what I see
Feel what I feel
You'd never even ask again
And if you knew what I know
If you felt what I feel
You'd maybe never smile again

If there is something you sense, like I am elsewhere
And if it seems like I am missing, I am…you
There’s a pull that pushes me to places
Where running away only feels like going home
It's like I’m running from stopping
It’s like I’m walking on fire
It's like I'm swinging at nothing…like I’m nothing

If you could see what I see
Feel what I feel
You'd never even ask again
And if you knew what I know
If you felt what I feel
You'd maybe never smile again

You’re Like the Rain

I watch the rain descend like curtains
In drapes, like shapes in capes and dancing
On peppered sheets of specks
That join to paint the pavement
You covered me
You've wet the dust
You're like the rain

I see the rain, like pearls, fall, spilling
Like strings it brings the sky so near me
Erasing tracks, it fills the cracks along the walk-way
You've filled me too
You're silk serrated
You're like the rain

 Sometimes in steady, slow, cool showers
You will come to me
Sometimes in storms
So like the rain
You’re like the rain

I felt the rain come down and touch me
It crashed in splashes lashing softly
The drops embraced each other, rose and fell together
Like they were one
Then they were one
We're like the rain

Sometimes in steady, slow, cool showers
You will come to me
Sometimes in storms
So like the rain
You’re like the rain

Eating Me Alive

I was dreaming when I fell asleep with my eyes alive
They strained to see the darkness
I was waking when I reached for you
And knew we'd reached an ending
Erase the cold embraces placing empty days on grand displays

I know I’m wandering
When feeling like I’m lost is home
I've tried so hard to heal what's killing me inside

You were silent when you spoke to me with your eyes alone
They searched for warmth between us
I was dying when I fell for you and thought it felt like living
But that embrace replaced the space of loneliness
With something less

I know I’m wandering
When feeling like I’m lost is home
I've tried so hard to feed what's eating me alive
I know I’m wandering
When feeling like I’m lost is home
I've tried to separate the heart of this
From the part of this that died

I’ve tried to fill it, I’ve tried to kill it.
I know I’m wandering
When feeling like I’m lost is home
You know I've tried to turn from what burns in me
From what yearns to be fulfilled
I've tried to fill it, I've tried to kill it
I've tried so hard to feed what's eating me alive
I've tried to fill it, I've tried to kill it
I've tried to separate the heart of this
From the part of this that died

The Corner of My Eye

Out of sight, out of mind, yet I still am near to it
Out of reach, out of time
But time's not how you measure it
And it screams in subtleties
Hints of what could be

I’ve felt it all along, what waited for so long
Seen only from the corner of my eye

Days wed months and begat years
And years grew to run away
What was and will, regret and fear
Have conspired to kill today
And it dreamed so vividly
Thoughts of what could be

I’ve felt it all along, what waited for so long
Seen only from the corner of my eye

Holding on, holding back from betraying a lesser thing
Virtue and vice both sacrificed to responsibility
But it clings so desperately
It dies in what should be

I’ve felt it all along, what waited for so long
Seen only from the corner of my eye

All Songs by K. Nardi

Copyright 2006

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